anxiety attacks...

not quite sure why i've been getting anxiety attacks lately, i've just felt like crying but no tears are coming out. It could be a cluster fuck of stuff, it could be from my mom's stress over haley always staying out super late, haley's stress from feeling like mom treats her like a baby and wanting to move out, my stress from not knowing what kind of cartoon i wanna do for my animation class and my abject fear of failing it again, and also probably the stress from the fact that it's highly likely that haley gave some money that was meant for me to mom because she's a fucking kiss ass even though she knows i don't have a lot of money and i dunno what i'll need for school or how much i'll need. Like, she was talking about how she'd give mom these extra checks she and i had or whatever if she needed it and i said no, i didn't agree to it since i may need that money, and she tells me to shut up, like no bitch, it's my money, you don't just give away my money without asking.

I always knew my sister was a kiss ass, only  helpful to mom or adults in general when it's convenient for her but the rest of the time not caring how they feel.